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最近几天太晚睡觉,偶染小恙,因此脑袋也是昏昏沉沉的,就全当扯淡吧。
最近发生了几件事情,小事。
第一件事情是近几天晚上睡觉都做记得住的梦了,而且相当怪诞离奇。除了前天的梦比较XX点外,基本都是地震啦,谋杀啊一类的,很是刺激。以昨天晚上的梦为例,梦到组队去爬珠峰,结果卷入了一个巨大的秘密。似乎队里的人会经常遇到一些离奇的意外,然后死亡。当我醒悟过来这是赤裸裸的谋杀之后,就开始逃亡。镜头切换那是相当有水准,有紧张感,跟电影似的。其实,梦的背后,还是我的空虚和盼望。盼望什么,谁知道,谁又不知道。
第二件事情是以前小时候的一个玩伴结婚了,今天去吃喜酒。还记得当时我胆小,于是他就放鬼片来吓唬我。而现在呢,我们是走在了完全不同的两条轨迹上,这从一开始就有其必然性。生活的家庭不同,接触的人不同,那么必然会不同,无论怎么努力或者怎么不努力。或许不是所谓的“龙生龙,凤生凤,老鼠生的儿子会打洞”、“老子英雄儿好汉,老子反动儿混蛋”。但是我想,每个人出生之后,就存在三个阶层,第一个是可达到阶层,就是说通过自身的努力,可以达到这一阶层,比父母优越的生活。第二个是平行阶层,在自身不努力的情况下,达到和父母类似的生活水平。第三个是退化阶层,通过自身不懈地败家,生活水平比父母还差。如果要超越所谓的“可达到阶层”,就需要机缘巧合和自身十倍百倍的努力了。
第三件事情是小姨和小舅开始闹离婚了。客观地说,男人总要出那么几次轨的。显然,小姨在处理这种事情上还缺乏冷静的方法。她爱那个男人,在小孩已经十多岁了之后,还是舍不得。不能用冷静客观的理性分析当前的处境,而任凭独守空房的寂寞和感慨蚕食自己仅有的理性。也就无外乎能够被那个把她早已摸透的男人玩弄于股掌之间。不仅丢失了孩子对母亲的爱戴,还将要丢失了更多。也就不奇怪现在的女人,一个个的理性思维都强于毕达哥拉斯数倍。可怜的小姨,还是一个太传统,没看透尔虞我诈弱肉强食社会的弱女子。
第四件事情是关于死亡。因为父亲搞急救的缘故,经常看到流血、断手断脚,死亡也就不足为怪了。在家的时候,总是要偶尔听到一些离奇的死亡故事。还是从这两起车祸说起。第一起车祸是发生在救护车接病人的时候。某医院的救护车,接到病人后风风火火送往医院,结果竟然在路上和一辆小车拦腰撞上,病人翻滚出担架,当场死亡,被撞到一侧的家属也一死一重伤。戏剧的是,医生护士却全然无恙。有和病人同乡的人说,病人死了无所谓,反正也不大抢救得过来,只是死了她儿媳妇。要不就赚了20多万,何乐不为。当一个人的剩余价值不及一堆纸钞的时候,我无法反驳这些朴素的看法。另一起车祸发生在上个周末,一位春风得意的院长开着车送老丈人回乡,在碎石路面上车打滑,翻下了悬崖。于是,一个家庭转眼间失去了父亲,母亲在ICU病房一躺不起。这大概就是所谓的人生的戏谑。医院很好心地愿意补偿很多钱,但是人情似纸张张薄,谁又知道过了一年,过了两年之后的事情呢。
结婚,离婚,死亡。还盼着谁家的孩子满月呢。
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